I have friends. At least, I have some. Maybe not much. Some people, is really easy to know, some people, don't. I only respect a few people at college. But, the few people I mentioned above, is really hard to know. They're just so hard. They like to thinking much. They like to think in many sides. They have sense of it. I tried to understand. But, I can't. Even, I can not remember how many times we have been in miss-understanding, about things or stuff. Really awful. They are my motivation. I really avoid do stupid thing, cause I won't them know me bad. Sometimes, I want make them be proud of me. Some, I was tired to think about it. It feels like, they don't respect me. They don't appreciate me. When I do right, nobody remembers. When I do wrong, everybody did, remembers it. It is really awful. Till now, I don't know what stuff I should do. No idea at all. I just promised them a thing. At up...